Sooo it's been I think a little more than a week since I last wrote something down here, and I told myself I was going to journal more often so this is me trying to be persistent lmao.
Well, my days have been okay so far, this week hasn't been too bad and the week before was alright. I worked at the restaurant on sunday and it went okay I just didn't make that much money like I expected. Actually I made less than I usually would... which sucks fr.
Mentally, I have been alright too. I'm really thinking a lot about the move to NYC, and I catch myself daydreaming often about how my life will change once I'm over there. I start to feel nostalgic about scenarios in the future which idk what that means???? Idk, I do think that once I am there, I will feel a lot of different feelings that I did not expect. I know I'm gonna miss my family a lot and that's the biggest thing on my mind when I find myself worrying about the change. I've always been here at home, even when I "moved out" I still was coming over everyday because of how lonely I felt being by myself.
Speaking of family, Mom's birthday is in two days :D I hope she enjoys it, even tho the weather might not be so good. I'm not sure yet what we're gonna do but hopefully it is a good day for her and the whole family. Naty's birthday is coming up too, that day should also be really fun. She's gonna throw a party on the day of her birthday and then later on we're going to take a trip to NYC!! How fun right hehe. By then the whole family will know about me and cache moving to NYC, so I wonder how it'll be visiting with that in mind.
Bruh, yesterday I spent like a quick 10-15 minutes debating with my dad about how I think Memo Ochoa plays good for la seleccion. WHICH I STILL THINK! But I quickly saw how the debate was just turning to him trying to have control of the mic and I ended up just surrendering lol :P It's a lot easier now once I realize that I'm not going to change his mind, he's just a natural debater.
I have therapy tomorrow and I'm going to talk about something really important in my life, I dont know how it will go especially since it's a topic I tend to run away from a lot, but It's time I try to atleast dip my toes in that pond again. Idk I was gonna talk more about it here but I actually dont want to anymore (am I running away from it again? probably...)
I've been on the edge of my seat waiting patiently to see when Lana is going to drop the video we shot and edited BUT SHE HASN'T MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT POSTING!!!.... Now I'm starting to think she doesn't like it ;( But maybe I'm also just overthinking.. sigh.. For now tho, I am going to rework on the video Edit I did of Johny. I checked it out again and in premiere it said the last time I opened the file was 5 months ago!! Holy shit dude. I acutally don't even like how the editing was done and it just didn't satisfy me where the video was going, except the beginning and ending. So, I'm gonna reedit the middle part and try to challenge myself with creating plain shots (my fault cuz i shot it) and make the video pop more. Let's see how I do omg.
Soon I'm going to add a section on my website for me to post vids and photos, like anything related to my work. It can even be like the process of the video being shot/edited or notes that helped me execute the ideas I come up with. Also, a portfolio section so that I can showcase more of my stuff. I just gotta make sure to hide these journal entries because I don't want random ppl to read my shit.
Alrighttt I'm getting eepy now and I have work tomorrow sooo I will sign off now, I love you Kito and I am happy you are progressing and putting effort into trying to do better for yourself and your future. Keep going!!
Levi Ryan - Operation Wandering Soul (really just the whole album)