This is my first entry in what I am calling my digital journal. Not gonna lie I have been wanting to do this for a while and I chose to do it at a time (12:15am) where I should be in bed for work in the morning...
Well, it's the beginning of the New Year so this entry fits perfect with the timing. I first want to write about recent changes and progress that I have noticed about my mental state. I'll start with an important one. I have finally been able to eat more food and not have to worry too much about how I will react (in terms of anxiety; how my body will react) which brings me such a good feeling like i'm sooo happy I was able to get to this point and I still want to continue my progress towards coping with my anxiousness thoughts and worries.
Another accomplishment I've felt with myself is I am able to find motivation towards working on my creative projects. This will always be such a hard thing for me to do because of all the distractions current society brings. Y'know like doomscrolling, and doomscrolling, and doomscrolling... -_- BUT I just finished a 2 hour-ish edit session on Lana's video project (We shot it in Jul 25'..) and I am making good progress and can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm trying to get back on track to refining my editing style and getting the hamster in my head back on the wheel, and this is without weed too like before that helped me a lot with locking in and getting the creative juices flowing, but now it's harder not gonna lie.. maybe this sober shit is not the end goal at all!!!
I feel like I had more "accomplishments" I wanted to put down but now I feel my head already going on different topics sooo let me just move on. I'M MOVING TO NYC THIS YEARRR!!! :D I really hope I don't look back at this and go "you fucking thought buddy!!". Nah but this is something that has been on my mind since the plan came to an agreement. It's going to be me, my brother Cache, and my friends Johny & Lana. I'm both excited and nervous but that's change for ya. I've always dreamt of moving to NYC after visiting the first time, which was like what..3 years ago? I think idk. Maybe Ny will humble us but to say that we did it and actually executed on the plan is worth way more than staying back and not taking the leap of faith. I'll keep updating the progress on the move which should be 6 months from now :) .... hopefully :P
Okay not gonna lie I am getting eepy and my neck hurts from having such shitty posture soo I think Im gonna end it off here and go to bed. Until next time Kito's inner voices!!! :3